"Have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary." -- Steve Jobs
A memory surfaces of walking alone one day in
when I was approached from behind by a man who directed me to give him my purse. I think his exact words were, "Gimme your purse!" I glanced back and without giving it a single thought replied, “Yeah right” and I kept on walking. I was seventeen and this was the first week of my freshman year at Rutgers University. Newark, New Jersey
When I arrived back at my campus dormitory, I told the security guard about the incident. In his words, “You are one crazy, lucky girl.” Even back then, I didn’t believe in luck. I did not recognize this incident as a threatening situation because my heart did not allow my mind to process it as such. I can't imagine another reason why I didn't take him seriously. Maybe he did expect that I would throw my purse at him and run. But he didn't try to grab it or bother to pursue me.
As I reflect more on this past experience, I see the presence of grace. Yes, the logical reaction would have been to hand over my purse and run as fast as I could. But I did not stop to think. It seems that I responded based on how I perceived the moment. Had I sensed the threat of violence, my response would likely have been to give in to his demands. But I didn't sense fear in that moment. Somehow, I knew his intentions were not to hurt me although I was an easy target—a young, female student walking alone. Lesson learned. That was my last solo walking venture in an unfamiliar area.
It was definitely grace and my inner being that allowed me to respond this way. Our hearts always know. Sensations arise from within us to make us aware of our how we are experiencing the world around us. A sense of fear often says to fight or take flight. A sense of sadness draws us inward so that we may explore our inner depths. A sense of frustration says, there is a better way.
Paying close attention to our body’s deepest signals can direct the choices that we make. Which choice is the right one? Which direction are we to choose? Whichever direction leads to greater peace inside—that is where we are meant to go.
Love and blessings,