Forgiveness is the gift you give yourself. It unblocks your heart and sets you free. But what if you don't know that your forgiveness is needed? What if the person has already passed from this life? Is it ever too late to say, I forgive you?
A scheduled book signing last Thursday evening prompted me to flip through the pages of my book, Messages from Within: Finding Meaning in Your Life Experiences. My thoughts were to share some of the Life's Messages at the end of each chapter; but, I found myself drawn in to reading the letter I had written to my biological father on page 62. I wrote this letter last Spring while at a retreat in Canada. At that time, it had been about ten years since his passing.
A Letter to My…
What of you is in me? I exist because of you. So, by definition, you are my father. I never knew you although you knew of me. I do not love you, but I don’t despise you either. It makes me sad to know that I was not created out of love. How is it that I can love so deeply in spite of this? I was not loved by you, but I was loved. I was not created out of your love, but I was created out of God’s love. My hope is that the best of you is in me. That is all. Goodnight.
Just as soon as I finished this reading, I felt an overwhelming presence. There was a sensation of being encompassed by love and all the intensity that typically bubbles up with this emotion; only it was coming from outside of me. I picked up my pen and this is what I wrote,
A Letter to My Father…
You were not able to love me when you were physically present in this world. You may not have known how to. Where you are, you are now whole. Where you are, you are now healed. And, for the very first time, today I was able to feel your love. I didn’t know that’s what I needed. But, you did. So, thank you. My heart is now open to loving you. I forgive you and now I can say that I love you.
What would bring you healing today?
Love to you,